Letting the people who aren't good for you go

It is so hard for me to read a friend of mine write that she would remotely consider remaining in a marriage which has been traumatizing for her well being. It kills me that I have been so distant to not only myself but her. I rarely make the effort any more to socialize. I don't want to trust anyone or have to explain what I cannot even explain to myself. So I withdrawal. I opened a myspace page back up as a means to recover from my previous experience. With doing that and adding my friends back I am forcing myself to socialize again. Obnoxious comments, chit chat and entertainment. There it was a blog from her expressing the ups and downs and contemplation if it is worth trying again. It made me sick. Where have I been? Not talking to her obviously. Caught up in my own bullshit that I cant ever pull my head out of my ass.
I feel awful, which if you haven't noticed I am rather good at doing.

Anyone else want to join the beat Julie down club? We have a waiting list right now. Everyone gets a turn.

Anyways...I guess it isn't my job to babysit my friends. But am I really her friend anymore? Did I leave her behind as Jenn left me?

I am there for you when you need me.