I was merely a player in a game.........

I will leave this situation with a bad taste in the back of my throat and pain in my heart.
Admitting that nothing and no one on the internet is who they say they are.
I was merely a player in a game I was unaware existed.
All the thoughts shared, conversations had, and daily life was a story line to be discarded and forgotten.
My values...the value of human existence, life, friendship and love I will try not to disengage myself from.
It's hard to have your trust broken again. It is hard to build it back up, or to even want to try to do it.
For those who are in my life 'for real' I owe it to them to continue being the person I was before any of this happened.
But honestly it will hang on the back of my mind until I find the resolution that works for me. Knowing it will come from within me.
I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to put myself out there to be hurt again.
Just know that I would never leave someone in never ending worry as to where I was, what has happened to me or if they did something wrong.
So because I would never do that, I will never understand how anyone could live with that choice.
Forgiveness is whisking me away because of the love I have for you.
I will let it go.
For me I will find a way to let it go...and still have love in my heart....